Hello everyone and welcome back to my blog! It’s a Sunday and I really want to share something on this blog that is faith-related. I haven’t written about my faith for so long and you guys, I surely had a huge adventure with our Lord. My journal would probably tell you how grateful I am for the past months because I have felt His presence- since the year started. I am so much thankful for that. I don’t really know where this is going but I’ll continue writing and hope the Lord blesses me with His words.
December 2018, we took our midterm examinations for the final semester and it feels like I didn’t do good enough. I was seriously doubting because for like half of the semester, I was laid back. I don’t know, it felt like I didn’t do good enough so I kept on praying. I always pray even before I hold my pen because I know that God will help me. Having good grades for this school year is very much important to me because it will help me pass the universities I have applied to. I kept on praying. When the results for the third quarter was released, I felt so blessed because I still got to manage to have a GWA of 90 above. I was honestly so happy and grateful because at that moment, I knew God helped.
Last week, March 11-15, I was so anxious because it was our finals. It was very important to me, too. I need to have high grades because one, the expectations of my parents and two, it will really help me to get to college because having a GWA of 90 above can offer you scholarships which is a very big deal to me! I was really anxious but still, I kept on studying hard. Sometimes, I stay up to 2-3am just to study because I really know how important is this to me and my college life. Good thing though, I still managed to take care of my health and I didn’t suffer because I don’t have enough sleep. I am just so glad that finals is over and I am just waiting for the results and for graduation. Last week was really a busy week because we also had to defend our thesis, pass a lot of performance tasks and agh, the exams were stressing! I felt joy when we had our last day because all of us were so happy that we managed to survive the stressful week.
Another thing I want to share to you is that I have been waiting for the results of the great UPCAT (University of the Philippines College Admission Test) and the PUPCET (Polytechnic University of the Philippines College Entrance Test). I am really waiting for the results of these two and I hope I pass any of them. These universities offer scholarships which I really need so that I wouldn’t bother my parents anymore to pay for my tuition. I hope I pass. I am waiting for His plans.
And while waiting, I am holding on to some verses.
“Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayers, believe that you have received it and it will be yours.” – Mark 11:24
I have been holding on to this verse for some time now and deeply believe that God has something in store for me. Every time I read or hear this verse, I feel something in my heart. It feels like God is talking to me or I don’t know, I just feel something.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.” – Philippians 4:6
Okay, I feel like crying right now. In this verse, I only know the part “do not be anxious about anything” because it helps me calm down every time I don’t know what to do in a situation. I didn’t know that this verse has a more message behind it and ah, God, thank You for giving me this verse.
“For with God, nothing is impossible.” – Luke 1:37
I once went to Our Lady of Manaoag and prayed there. In the Church, there is a basket full of verses in which you should take one and reflect when you get home. I was crying inside the Church while praying and I was asking for something that I know will be hard for me to have. I was losing hope. Once I was done praying, I picked one verse in the basket and what I got was it, Luke 1:37. It was certainly God’s message for me that time. He talked to me. My heart felt relieved after receiving the verse and I thanked God. He is SO good to me just like He is in everyone else.
I am patiently waiting for His plans, whatever it is. I know it will always be for the better because He knows everything. I delight myself in prayers every time so that I will have the patience to wait. And to those of you who are waiting too, always talk to God. He is there to listen and answer even in the simplest ways. Just pray. It will always help.
And yep, here I am, still waiting.
Thank you so much for reading and I hope this has reached out to you. I felt like sharing my experiences on how God spoke to me when I was losing hope. And I hope God showers you with contentment and happiness wherever you are in the world. Let us keep on waiting for His better plans.
Let’s serve while waiting.
I hope you enjoyed this post and I would also like to know,
What are the verses that spoke to You during the hardships or struggles that you had?
Please share in the comments section below because it will surely help others and me, too!